I never thought I would ask this question but the past couple of months all I've been doing is doubting myself. I'm 23 years old and right out of HS I went to college majoring in nursing and took all my prerqs and GE courses then got into the nursing program of my choice. I've worked so hard to get where i am and I'm not happy. My goal was to get into a good nursing program and I used to say if I get in I will be happiest person in the world! I used to say I can't wait to start nursing school. Now after all the hard work and after my first semester of nursing school I don't think I can do it.
I went from being a straight A student in my prereqs to all Bs in my first semester of nursing school. I qualify for the bridge program to get my BSN but that doesn't even excite me anymore. During clinicals I felt so out of place and didn't feel comfortable. So many of the students in my class were CNAs before and knew the basics that I was just learning. The only thing I realized after the first semester of nursing school is how much I do not know. I am terrified, and I feel stupid. I got a good score in clinicals but was told to know my meds better. Odd part is I was doing ok in pharm, averaging at 86% but during clinicals I would forget everything. I have zero confidence in myself and I feel like if I become a nurse I'll harm someone. I like helping people but the fear that someone will depend on me to care for them makes me so nervous I want to run far away from nursing. I knew the reality of it, but it didn't hit me until I went to clinicals and faced situations where I was responsible for someone and then realized the extent of stress and self doubt that I faced.
The past month I have been thinking of all these different majors and if I should quit nursing, but I want to first know if these feelings are normal or am I just not cut out for this?
