Second Thoughts

[Living_True]

Good evening to all,

So my initial plan was to pursue a Bachelors of science in nursing. Perhaps even to excel my eduaction through a master degree. For a while I have been seeking high and low for answers ,and have had many questions.

I am not sure If I have just found myself in the wrong place at the wrong time or have I been mislead or misguided. I know where I have been tying to get , but did not know where to start or How to get there.

I feel there are so many superiors to me. Why I wanted to pursue nursing? was not because 99.9 people wanted the same. At that time I was in high school. I was really eager for a career in veteranary medicine,but due to the lack of guidance I fell back on something were I could put my self and still be me. At the time, nursing was not commonly heard of. At least I did not hear of it around every corner. Going into college it changed throughout the course of my studies. Nursing became a common word in every class, course pre req etc. Even throughout my personal life people outside of school.

I found myself at the peak of school to transfer. I guess at the time all i knew was I would be graduating with my pre reqs ,but was not aware or prepared what to do next, Which sounds ridiculous ,but being new and facing these challenges on your own things can become insanley ridiculous. Perhaps a simple application or exam or clear instruction ,which can seem overwhelming.

This career attempt has been the hardest thing I have ever done. I cannot think of anything more difficult or maybe it just became harder with the increase in demand. One thing I have learned to manage is the frustration to those who have made it through without prior knowledge, compassion for the career and just doing it for the money and employment. I understand many who get through get there fairly ,but to were I am now I beg to differ. I do not feel everyone gets through fairly. I am not saying this because I may not percieve my dream or vision as a potential health care proffesional. I do not feel a paper or exam can determine someones capablility. Then we have so many rude nurses who get through or even people who earn their way through a system or through referneces.

I do not have none of that. It has been a year what have I been doing? I had been trying to figure out what was the Hesi A2, how hard was it what else did I need. I was completley confused for months I studied after finally buying the review. I took so long because of so many perceptions that this exam was hard and in my mind i felt i would not know the information on it, I felt that I would never be ready, which now is ridiculous to think when you have studies that supplement the career. "Little did I know".

I became so afraid I stalled and focused on others opinions. I finally scheduled and took it about a month ago I passed. I thought that the nursing community was through compassion, nurture care and the willingness to help others with dignity and pride I have been over shadowed with sadness through the eagerness of what i thought nursing actually was..... I dont understand why so many become stuck up or stingy. I get its competetive and we are all trying to make a living ,but at the end of the day what really is nursing?

I have found my self discovering new information everyday. I realize I may of approached my goals incorrectly. Simple things have set me behind and it sucks... Every day it gets harder schools are changing their requirements , adding new things, adding policies expiration periods, Adding subtracting exam sections, changing exams etc. I have come to confront my fear that this may not be for me and it aches deep down in my core. I do not know what else I can pursue and make the best of what I have with my associates without having to take anything in addition. Is there any suggestions or alternates for former nurses who didnt become nurses? What other career options are enabled other than nursing?

Its disspointing that there are many particular perspectives of the field and what it is. Everyone may want it ,but not everyone gets through. For those who are so self centered whats the worry of providing advice or simply sharing your experiences is it fear or what? I personally do not think anything is taken from someone looking up to you for advice based of your success. Most may not even surpass you or get to were you are... I am emotionally disgusted, upset and anxious.

I feel like a failure I do not want to get my hopes down because only time will tell. I just cannot afford to continue to pay 100 plus for repitition of admissions exams because of the diversity of requirements. I pass ,but due to the lack of information have complicated my options. To late now.... I do not want to feel as if I must keep investing and not have guarentee of a seat. I am barley making it and still its hard to find a stable job with no proffessional experinece, certification, or license.

Any suggestions or advice are greatly appreciated. I am trying to keep my head held high ,but I am at my worst I am about to be 22 and personally my life is not at its best. Things do not seem to be falling in place ,and I do not know who else to reach out to or speak to I have no one ,but myself who can understand me. I have tried reaching out to schools in my area ,and I guess advisors and councleors are annoyed with "nursing" I guess the popularity in calls and concerns has become annoying, So they just ignore you. Anyways, thank you in advance to those out there willing to be a role models to others.

[jennylee321]

This post is long and confusing. Could you clarify for me. You have your nursing pre-reqs but are having trouble gaining admission to a program ?

[HeySis, BSN, RN]

I do not have none of that. It has been a year what have I been doing? I had been trying to figure out what was the Hesi A2, how hard was it what else did I need.

I had yo look up that exam and it says it's pre-admission for a medical assistant?? I am confused, but this is what I got. OP, please feel free to clarify and correct my understanding.

1. You wanted to be a nurse before it was popular.

2. Went to college for Pre-req's, and found getting into a program was harder then expected.

3. Feel it's unfair that some people get into nursing school for a job, to make money, without knowledge or compassion.

4. Exams are not a fair indicator of ability.

5. Nursing schools keep changing admission criteria.

6. Took time off to study for entrance exam for MA school due to perceived difficulty, and passed.

7. Think that too many nurses got through school unfairly.

8. And think rude nurses are not qualified to be nurses.

9. Want advice from nurses on alternative careers.

10. Calling some people (but not sure if this is nurse or not) self centered for not sharing advice.

11. Can't continue to pay for entrance exams.

12. Nursing advisors not returning calls.

Where I went to nursing school did not require an entrance exam (although I know of many excelerated programs that do) just a stellar GPA and CNA certification or LPN license currently held.

I sure feel like I'm missing something. Not sure if you're venting your frustration? We all need to do that now and then. Or if there is another question than

I do not know what else I can pursue and make the best of what I have with my associates without having to take anything in addition. Is there any suggestions or alternates for former nurses who didnt become nurses? What other career options are enabled other than nursing?

I have no idea other areas to pursue, because nursing is the one I choose? And since I don't know what your associate degree is, or what classes you took, I would be ill qualified to even guess what else you could do with it.

If there is another question in there, please come back and clear up my misunderstandings and I'll try and answer.