Saturday October 15 2022

Ado Annie, ASN, RN · Oct 15, 2022

Joe I hope you can get out to the bike path. You reminded me that we have a dinner at church tomorrow and I need to think of something to take.

I completely understand about giving up choir. If you are not finding joy in it then it just becomes drudgery.

Twin B went with me to take some items to Goodwill. He occasion does LARPing (live action role playing) weekends and wanted to look for a vest for a costume idea. Didn't find one.

Need to start laundry, make meal plans for the week, and get the groceries. I'm going to have to spend some additional hours at the office, too, but maybe not this weekend.

No Stars In My Eyes · Oct 15, 2022

Hubby went up to rest on his bed after supper. I went outside for a while. After I went back inside he was standing next to his bed and wanted to know why neither of us (me or Nannie) went up to help him after he fell out of bed! I was outside and didn't hear him fall, Nannie was asleep and couldn't have done anything about it if she had heard it.

Later, way after supper, I was in my room and heard a thump from the kitchen, but to me it sounded like hubby had dropped a (full, closed) 2 liter drink on the floor. A few minutes later I went down to the kitchen and see hubby on the floor between the table and the wall; he'd just fallen, I don't really understand how, even though he explained it to me. He wouldn't let me help him figure out to get up. He said, "I am so sick of this sh*t." All I could say was, "ME TOO!"

Later before bed, he came into my room and said, "I've got to figure out something to do to stop this falling." and my reply was, "Yeah, quit drinking." He ventured to say that he thought it was the Xanax that caused him to fall. I told him, "Yes, when you drink Vodka with it. You know the doctor told you it was dangerous. You can't just quit the Xanax and keep drinking. You are wrecking your inner organs, your liver, your kidneys, your pancreas." He just said "Hmm" and I said, "You know it's a slow death from alcoholism when your organs start failing a little at a time. It's not at all pleasant or easy." I also told him there was no magic pill, it was going to be a matter of doing the Librium taper and going to AA mtgs as often as possible. I said, "I can't do the detox for you. And you know that I'm the one having to run this household now, and I can't do THAT all by myself anymore. I need your help, too, y'know."

He ventured to say that if he got bad, I could just put him in a home. I said that I don't know how we could do that since we can't even afford to put Nannie somewhere. I said, "I'd have to sell the house if it came to that." Just a little reality, there. He didn't want me to sell the house. Well, where do you think the money for your and her upkeep would come from? And I would have to find some place to live, too. He sighed and said the usual, "Well, we'll figure it out." Yeah.....HAH!

The ball game is on and Phillies are ahead 4-2. Hubby got disgusted and went out to his "office". I saw a brown paper bag out in that car, so I'm wondering how snockered he will be when he comes back in to say, "Well, what have you girls decided about supper."

Same old same old.

Ado Annie, ASN, RN · Oct 15, 2022

Stars all I can do is "listen" and pray. He does seem to be in that river of denial.

No Stars In My Eyes · Oct 15, 2022

12 minutes ago, Ado Annie said:

Stars all I can do is "listen" and pray. He does seem to be in that river of denial.

And he has no oars in the water.....!

Tweety, BSN, RN · Oct 16, 2022

G'day.

Work was okay. We're still surprising slow. Got two admits. One of whom came out of PACU with his jaws wired shut and start spitting out blood. Turns out it was really a nose bleed from being intubated nasally. His BP was 200/110 and it looked like the Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Why can't these people do this in PACU instead of when they arrive immediately.

Fun times.