Reluctant to go into work tonight.

[Missingyou, CNA]

I work 2nd shift in long term care.

My hallmate and I make a real effort to give the best care possible. We have a difficult group. There are 21 residents between the 2 of us with the major majority being total care or 2 assist &/or light riders.

Two of my hall mates recently left for other positions on different units because of the work load.

I spoke to my nurse the other night about feeling overwhelemed and concerned the residents weren't getting the needed/deserved care.

she admitted she knew its a tough group. She then threatened to write me up if I couldn't keep up with the work load! This was a nurse I worked well with and trusted to listen to my concerns.

Now, I don't want to go into work because I feel no matter how hard I try, it won't be good enough. I'm feeling like I won't give 100% any more. No more LITERALLY running from room to room instead of walk...just answer the call lights (same ones every 10 minutes) in "less than 5 minutes" and if the total cares go without changes for 5 hours and others are still up in their chairs at 10pm....at least the call lights are answered and I repositioned everyone who needed to be every 2 hours...

NEVER in my 20+ years of being a CNA have I felt SO frustrated and stressed in my job...and I have NEVER dreaded going into work like I do now.

Just needed to vent because noone else will listen.

[mistersmuve]

aw that's a bad move by the nurse, she is probably miserable to behave that way.

[caliotter3]

Take a vacation. Look for a new job while you are out. We all need a change of scenery every so often.

[Missingyou, CNA]

A week later and I thought I'd be over this frustration by now but I'm not.

Last night at work I was trying to get help for a two assist. I asked one of 3 CNA's who were hanging out at the nurses station to help. I went and grabbed a hoyer, etc. 5 minutes later still no help. I asked the same group again and I got "sure I'm on my way". Again, several minutes later no help!!! I poked my head out and help FINALLY arrived. I was extremely frustrated and apparently wasn't hiding it as well as I hoped.

When the CNA asked what was wrong, I pretty much let my frustration out on her. . I didn't mean to...I said something like, "while you get to chit chat, I HAVE to run like a nut to get things done! I don't have TIME to chit chat!" She said she was super busy too, I said apparently not!.

I just couldn't control my mouth. *sigh* I did apologize to her but the damage is done.

I don't want to sacrifice my quality of care because the work load is overload but, I guess I have no choice and it's driving me crazy.

This is otherwise and excellent facility with awesome care and awesome staff. I don't want to leave, and truthfully, I keep telling myself that Winter is coming and the census will change dramatically by Spring....that's the reality of it and sad that I see it as my only solution.

......I no longer trust this nurse nor "get along" with her or any other nurse like I did before this incident.