I was this job in nursing home about 6 weeks. I was very overwhelmed and thought it would get easier as time went by. My anxiety level just increased even more when I was no longer orienting. This was a decent NH with a very low turnover. But, the last few nights I worked, I did not even get a break, and worked an hour and a half over. (also, must clock out at quitting time, and finish charting)
Also, throughout all of this, I learned that my adult daughter had starting abusing benzos. This started about three weeks after I started this job. And, she goes to methadone clinic. So, she has a deadly combo here. I swear, at times, she sounds just like Anna Nicole Smith. I cannot even get her into a rehab because she is on a high dose of methadone. She needs to taper to a smaller dose, which will take about 11 weeks. She is a single mother of a 2 y.o. So, I have been watching him most of the time when she has him. She shares custody with the father every other week. So, I come home from a bad night at work, to only more problems.
Originally, I gave a two week notice, last week. But, last night, my daughter took my car in the middle of the night, leaving my sick 2 y.o. grandson. I had no idea where she was. I felt very spacy, and did not feel that I could provide safe care. I called off.
After much thought, I realized that I am probably more of a liability. I am delioursly tired at the end of my shift, and am forgetting things that I should have charted. I remeber them when I come home. Okay, these are legal documents, so that is a big deal.
I was only supposed to work three days a week. When I asked for more orientation, she merely put me on four days a weeek. All that managed to do was increase my anxiety.
She was quite peeved that I told her that I don't think that I could complete the two weeks. That I felt that I was not charting properly at the end of the evening. She did tell me that she was in a bind. HOwever, she could not in good conscience allow me to work. Also, I would be paid minimum wage for quitting without a two week notice. And, I would be placed on the "bad girl list". Meaning that I would be unhireable by the company in the future. Trust me, I will never attempt LTC again. But, I just feel awful about quitting this way. I have never quit a job without a notice. She is very disappointed, and I can't say that I blame her. I am very disappointed in myself right now.
Sorry for your stress. Just concentrate on the important issues right now and that seems to be your daughter and grandson. She needs help, some sort of intervention may be necessary. Yes, I mean a stay at a facility ordered by the state. Only you can judge that.
This job was probably not one you would be at for long. It is not as important as the other issues in your life right now. God will give you help and strength, only takes asking. Blessing.
I was this job in nursing home about 6 weeks. I was very overwhelmed and thought it would get easier as time went by. My anxiety level just increased even more when I was no longer orienting. This was a decent NH with a very low turnover. But, the last few nights I worked, I did not even get a break, and worked an hour and a half over. (also, must clock out at quitting time, and finish charting)
barefootlady, ADN, RN
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Sorry for your stress. Just concentrate on the important issues right now and that seems to be your daughter and grandson. She needs help, some sort of intervention may be necessary. Yes, I mean a stay at a facility ordered by the state. Only you can judge that.
This job was probably not one you would be at for long. It is not as important as the other issues in your life right now. God will give you help and strength, only takes asking. Blessing.