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Thurs night was a crazy night for me. I only had 6 patients and most of them were good except I had one with a hemoglobin of 4.0 (that is not a typo). The 4.0 hemoglobin guy was getting blood all night and had a previous MVA that left him with just enough brain damage to be ornary, combative, and just mean in general, but he was still "with it" enough that we couldn't really restrain him. Hemoglobin guy was scheduled for an EGD and colonoscopy in the am so he was NPO (and not one bit happy about it; nor was he happy about the blood). He proceeded to tell me that he felt we were using him as an experiment and that he would not be back to this hospital every time I went into his room. He wanted to go outside so he could smoke, but with blood hanging and his low hemoglobin, this was not an option. No worries, he just drug his IV pole to the bathroom and smoked there (3 times!). We had to stop in between each of 4 units to take him out in a w/c just to keep him from smoking in the bathroom. At 0600, I was standing at the med cart when I smelled smoke yet again. By this point I had had enough. I walked to his room, turned the corner and saw his IV (pole, catheter, blood and all), but not him. He had ripped out his IV (for the second time) and his bed was now covered in blood while he stood in the bathroom smoking. I managed to get him back to bed and hooked up again just in time to give report. I felt like I had been hit by a truck. I was completely frazzled. The funny part of this is that while I was coming apart at the seams, I never thought about how I looked to any one else. Well, I went in tonight for a couple of hours and I saw our RT. She stopped me and asked me how I managed to stay so calm that night. I told her I thought she had the wrong person. ;-) She said she had watched me all night chasing after this guy and I seemed to be so cool and calm. She said she even left it in her report that she wondered what it would take to "rattle" me. HA! I told her she had missed the part where I had a little break down. I guess I am just glad to know that I at least look like I have it all together and know what I am doing. I hope my patients see me the same way. ;-)