Opened My Letter W/ a Pit in My Stomach

[prairiegirl]

I have a dilemma. I was secretly hoping I would not get accepted into the nursing program I applied to so that I would not have to decide if I wanted to do it or not. But, I got a fat envelope yesterday with the acceptence letter and all the info. I dont know what to do. I dont know if nursing is for me, but I cannot think of anything else I want to do. I hate business type stuff and I dont want a biology degree because i dont want to do research all the time. So, i asked my husband what he honestly thought about me being a nurse. Big mistake. He said he would rather me not do it because he's worried I'll be too stressed doing it and be treated poorly by patients and doctors. I need some suggestions.......I dont have clue what to do, but I have to do something because quitting college is not an option. And I want to do something....

[iliel]

I totally have issues with the idea of applying just to see if you can get in....

at my school there are a VERY limited amount of spots...like 30 .....there were 270 applications a MONTH ago....final deadline is thursday....

so if they give even 1 or 2 of those to people who aren't really interested and won't really ATTEND then there's 1 or 2 that miss that oppty!

I wouldn't want that done to ME so I would NEVER do that to anyone else!

It's very selfish !!!

I'm sure this is directed at me so let me clear up the statement I made about "just to see if I get in"

I wanted to be a nurse so bad for so long. But as I began to shadow and talk to nurses (not just on this board) I started having second thoughts. Will I be able to be the type of nurse I want to be in a healthcare system that we have today. My answer to that was most likely no.

HOWEVER, I completed all my prereqs etc. and I've decided to change my major. When that paper came in the mail, I started to think about it. Did I just need a break from all the nursing talk? Maybe. Do I still want to be a nurse, YES. Do I want to stress myself out to no end and work in what seems to be a dangerous situation (here in Vegas), NO.

When it comes down to it, and I get in, I might have a different view and it may come back to me about why I wanted and worked so hard for this in the first place.

After we get the letters we have 2 weeks to tell the school or they give up our place. If I decide not to do it, then the next person get's my spot. If I don't turn in the track paper, and want to be a nurse, then I've lost my spot.

I'm not hurting anyone, I'm covering my bases. I think in this situation, others would do the same.