One semester left and I'm scared I'll fail!!

[firechalice]

Okay Ya'll, I have just finished my next to last semester and IT WAS HORRIBLE!!!! This has been the worst semester ever in CRNA school! I haven't made a C yet but I think I did this semester. Grades will be in soon enough.

Clinicals are going well enough. No problems there. Its just that I have lost all motivation to study. The information just won't stick in my head and I have no more energy to beat it in. I am supposed to graduate this December but I just wonder.... I feel as dumb as a box of rocks. All the information that I learned in the beginning has evaporated. WHAT DID I SPEND THE FIRST 9 MONTHS OF THIS PROGRAM DOING!!!

I'm scared and there's not much I can do about it. I cannot figure out for the life of me what is going on! I am depressed and stressed. Haven't had a break in like 7 months and won't have one until October. I'm worried about a job, about the future of the profession, about loans, about bills, about love, about life, about boards, about everything. Sometimes I think I'm in self destruct mode. Am I afraid of graduating and going back to the life I had before? I can see why people get divorced during CRNA school. It changes you. I am not the same person. I'm just plain ole scared now.

I hope I pass. I was told by the professor not to worry, but I just don't know... I really feel like I suck in the didactic portion. I feel like I suck at almost everything except clinicals! Quite a change from when I started clinical rotations over a year ago when I just about quit the program after about 4 months. I mean I was never the smartest student but... I need a hug lol!

Seriously though. I'm scared, and extremely anxious. I don't think this is senioritis. Is this normal?

[MatyIce]

Hang in there. I'm just trying to get into a CRNA program. You're scaring me. You're almost done. You're almost there.

[Mully]

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:7.

This is how I fight anxiety.

[NURSENAMASTE58]

Find that place deep down that made you take this direction in life, your purpose, and center yourself. Best of luck!

[Propofolgtt]

"I'm worried about a job, about the future of the profession, about loans, about bills, about love, about life, about boards, about everything."

There are a ton of jobs out there, but you might have to move (think ADVENTURE!).

Loans don't start repayment for a while (when it does, it sucks! But, meh...).

Bills: the toughest period is right before your first paycheck (so budget that last Financial Aid check you get in Fall accordingly). Love and life: The Secret of Life is- Find something you love to do, and then share that life you've created with someone you love (BOOM!).

Boards: Get a 1-2 year old Valley binder with someone's note scribblings in it, read through it on a schedule (I crammed it in about a week and a half). Do Prodigy Paces (though it's not the most well organized, and the tests make you feel STUPID!). Do a couple of Core Concepts tests (make you feel MUCH smarter). Rock the Boards.

Everything else?: Its gonna be what its gonna be. Worry about the stuff you can actually control. With the rest: Don't sweat the petty, and don't pet the sweaty. ;-)

[loveanesthesia]

You are burned out, and/or depressed-if at all possible take a week off. School is long and stressful. Consider seeking out someone to talk with-hopefully in your program administration. I've seen students get like this, and a little time off will help sometimes, and in some cases you need to talk to someone professionally about the possibility of depression. You'll make it and it's OK to ask for help.