On My Own Next Week Already!!!!!!!

[DarciaMoonz, LPN]

Okay, for those of you who have read my "my first med. error" post, I wanted to say I am still at the same facility. Until I can find something else, I am covering my orifice as best as I can. Next week I will be THE charge nurse, and after stating that I don't feel like I am ready, I got the "don't worry, you'll be fine" brushoff/speech. I am so nervous because there are some things regarding paperwork that I have not been inserviced on yet. Not only that, but Thursday and Friday, there will be student who will be taking some of the patients!!!!!! I don't feel like I know anymore than they do, and now I have to worry about keeping tabs on them along with there instructor. The CNAs are very helpful, and I will be utilizing their knowledge about he residents alot next week. I almost started not to go back after being pulled from the unit I was orienting on yesterday to fill in on a heavy unit after being partway into the med pass on the original unit (phew, that was a mouth full). 3 p.m. rolls around, I get ready to sit and chart, and I was hit with "well you have do all of treatment!!!!!". By the time 4 p.m. came I stated I wasn't doing anymore because I would be there for another 8 hours shift. The reply I got was "you can't expect to leave at 3 everyday (which by the way only happened on my very first day). I talked to the DON and was told that I didn't have to do that because 1)I am still on orientation and 2) I was pulled off of my original unit so late. To make a long story short, the supervisor was pissed (even though she sat on her butt all day talking about nonsense, and can never give me a straight logical answer to any question I ask). I am so nervous about next week. I am just gonna pack me a bag and sleep there for 5 days because by the time I get done teaching myself basically the whole day is shot. Who knows maybe if I am lucky I can see the sunset by the time I leave.