I am a new grad working ltac. Just finished my orientation last week. This week I will be "on my own." I am terrified. Everyone says I was "doing great" and that I am ready to be on my own. I just feel like there are so many scenarios that could come up that I haven't seen yet. Even on my last two shifts of orientation there were things that came up that I didn't know how to deal with. My main preceptor was great. Very supportive. The house supervisors have told me that I am not ever alone, they will be there to support me. It just seems so scary.
The goal was to get me up to 6 patients by the end of orientation. I only got up to five, because of the acuity of the types of patients I had been assigned (most recently 5 patients, 4 had trachs, 3 had vents, 2 were getting tpn, 3 on tube feeding, all with piccs/mid lines and all with multiple iv abx). Logically I know I am probably ready, but emotionally I am definitely not ready. I have four shifts in a row starting tomorrow night. I guess it will be sink or swim. Any well wishes or positive thoughts sent my way will be greatly appreciated!