Brand new RN here in month 2 of my orientation on a high-risk maternity floor. I knew that this field was very specialized, and that it would take me a long time to feel even remotely comfortable, but I had no idea that the learning curve would be THIS insane. I dread going to work because every day I make at least two horribly embarrassing mistakes, or miss tons of little things that the more experienced nurses claim as "obvious." For the most part I have lots of support from my coworkers, but none from management. Worst of all, my preceptor has been a nurse for 25+ years and doesn't remember how to teach the basics. My cervical exams are always off (nooo idea what's happening in there unless they are 1-3), my IVs nearly always blow veins, I feel completely lost learning our documentation system, and I never know how to "plan" my day when this isn't the type of field where I can schedule much. I function through organization normally, but I can't create any kind of routine right now. Some of the other nurses laugh in my face when I even use the word "plan." I feel helpless...I have a lot of social phobia in that I get embarrassed when I screw up, which is often. Is this normal new grad stuff? I don't want my managers to regret hiring me or for my coworkers to think I'm a total idiot. I have great rapport with my patients, I study OB material all the time, and I know that if I had the proper teaching that I could do my job. But right now...I'm literally floundering. I feel sheepish and flustered all day, especially when trying to communicate with the docs or while giving report. Someone tell me that this is normal and give me ANY tips to push past?! I fantasize about finding a job with more structure everyday but I feel like I would regret it. I'm tired of crying on the drive home everyday. I feel useless at my job and it sucks. Thanks for reading, if you made it this far.
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Brand new RN here in month 2 of my orientation on a high-risk maternity floor. I knew that this field was very specialized, and that it would take me a long time to feel even remotely comfortable, but I had no idea that the learning curve would be THIS insane. I dread going to work because every day I make at least two horribly embarrassing mistakes, or miss tons of little things that the more experienced nurses claim as "obvious." For the most part I have lots of support from my coworkers, but none from management. Worst of all, my preceptor has been a nurse for 25+ years and doesn't remember how to teach the basics. My cervical exams are always off (nooo idea what's happening in there unless they are 1-3), my IVs nearly always blow veins, I feel completely lost learning our documentation system, and I never know how to "plan" my day when this isn't the type of field where I can schedule much. I function through organization normally, but I can't create any kind of routine right now. Some of the other nurses laugh in my face when I even use the word "plan." I feel helpless...I have a lot of social phobia in that I get embarrassed when I screw up, which is often. Is this normal new grad stuff? I don't want my managers to regret hiring me or for my coworkers to think I'm a total idiot. I have great rapport with my patients, I study OB material all the time, and I know that if I had the proper teaching that I could do my job. But right now...I'm literally floundering. I feel sheepish and flustered all day, especially when trying to communicate with the docs or while giving report. Someone tell me that this is normal and give me ANY tips to push past?! I fantasize about finding a job with more structure everyday but I feel like I would regret it. I'm tired of crying on the drive home everyday. I feel useless at my job and it sucks. Thanks for reading, if you made it this far.