Seriously Confused and hopeless - page 2

I'm lost. I'm confused. Don't know what to do. Love hurts so much, it's this punding force that won't let up. I don't want to fail as a parent. So far, my child is the happiest human being I have... Read More

  1. by   SharpPetal
    I never thought I could get so much encouragement from strangers, thank you all .
    Ironically, I woke up at 6:30 in the morning...dropped off my daughter at daycare by 7:30 (compared to 8:30 or 9) and used the rest of my time catching up on my studying till my class at noon. Mainly Algebra because it's foreign to me.
    Anyway, I went to bed crying last night yet, for some reason unkown to me, woke up energized and ready to do my best with what needs to be done NOW .
    I'm gonna be 20 soon living with my daughter. I know I got it lucky right now because my parents are able to watch her when I need to study, and no cash comes out of my pocket for daycare because the daycare is located at my college, and as long as I'm a full-time student, Social Services pay for it, (that's more than $500 a month for her age).
    I won't have my parents watching her forever {kinda old }, and my daughter only has the spot in the daycare till 3 for sure. So that is the main reason I want to take advantage of this time as much as I can.
    I consider myself a VERY ambitious, and strong-willed person....IF I got the motivation and encouragement. But as easily as I can get in that "mode", it could dissappear quicker than my baby's father .
    I really feel a lot of you understand, and the fact that you at least attempt to try means alot.
    I am sorry for the sarcasm nickname was "Drama Queen" in high school, what can I say?
    My current GPA is 3.7 and I am an art major right now (guess that's why).
    I figure I could always do my art on the side (maybe open up a studio, hehe), but nursing seems to be waiting for me as well.
    I'm gonna go study, my fingers don't know when to stop again, I thank you all for advice/info/encouragement. Everything has just been the icing on the cake. The cake being my less pessimistic attitude .....till then

    Blessed Be
    Last edit by SharpPetal on Mar 24, '03
  2. by   NurseRachy
    Ah that is great to hear SharpPetal! I had a feeling that you would wake up and feel better. What a great idea to place your daughter in chikd care early and do some work - that means you get more of the night to be with your daughter. (I consider this a better time than the morning too) I am 21 and have friends in a very similar situation as you, but you sound as though with lots of hard work you are really going places!! well done, I am most impressed with your drive! You wil be a great nurse - now don;t you forget that!!