I was reading some old posts from some people that were about 2 years old and wanted a fresh thread on this. Any nurses out there with Bipolar (BP) Disorder? How have you managed it? What kinds of things have happened for you?
I loved my job for awhile. Now I wonder if the stress is just too much. I work on a high stress, busy busy floor...who doesn't these days. I love the hospital I work for, but I am having a lot more issues lately than ever before. I am going to see my boss today and I'm concerned about what she is going to reprimand me about.
I am very open about my BP, but lately, people are telling me that it has gotten a lot worse. I don't know why. I am on the brink of being hosptialized again. I know if this happens, I will loose my job. I have called out a lot becuase of physical problems and other times due to my BP. My boss has been very nice about keeping me aboard.
My main problems right now are with anger. ..followed by depression. I have never gone off on a patient no matter how bad they have been. My problems are with co-workers. Also, I did break down in front of a patient 2 weeks ago because I was so stressed and couldn't get help from anyone.
I'm just perplexed at what this disorder has done to me. I cannot see myself doing anything different. I feel lost.
