After a couple yrs out of nursing due to health issue.. I'm back orienting in a new place (same type of position) but am feeling (and hearing snickers behind my back isn't helping) SO DUMB!
This computer system has so many different clicks-arrows-options-exception etc to it during order entering (I used to work off of Kardex). I used to work nights as well, and never had to make appointments, do admissions (not really), call for transport, do labs etc etc....
I know I'm not dumb.. and this stuff isn't rocket science.. but I feel so overwhelmed and am starting to see the frustration with one of my trainers. I've been orienting 7 days now yet just .. ugh.. left today not liking the feeling I had.
I know I'm super sensitive, and should let this crap roll off my back, but I must accept that I can't.. not yet anyway. Just caught out of the corner of my eye, a few eye-roll smirks etc. from my trainer to the LPN on the floor. Not a lot, and not really blatant, but enough so that I noticed it and sensed it. My trainer is becoming frustrated in showing me the computer as she stated "I've shown you 6 times".. not mean, but the frustration in her voice was there. I take lots of notes, but things seem to move SO damned fast that I'm just..... overwhelmed.!
I know that once I get it, I'll be fantastic at this job... but , it stings nonetheless ...
Just wanted to vent and hopefully, get some support.. and yeah, some ideas as to how I can get more from this orientation/experience.
I did take extra effort to thank one of them for her patience, and I understood how frustrating training can be. That didn't help.. today I got "canned" so to speak.
Specializes in Oncology, Rehab, Public Health, Med Surg.
I started thinking about what helped me be successful--remember I was out of hospital nursing for about 15 yrs.
I was fortunate enough to work in environment that was of mixed ages and open-minded to different pathways i interviewed and was not accepted for a job in a culture that sounds like the one you worked in. If i had got that job, i think I would have been writing a post similar to yours.
My manager was a believer in return-to-the-bedside nurse. And I chose to take a transitonal RN role ( think internship) at a lower wage but a more extended orientAtion. And I still struggled at times-- ok many times :) check out some of my posts around 2010. You'll see what I mean -- I was so, so stressed.
So, first you're not alone. Not by a long shot. And it's not you. So don't beat yoursef up about this.
Who you work with is paramount to your sucess when you return after a lenghty abscence. Some people can't wait to make themself feel better by shooting others down
Think about what environments would work best for you. You just need a little time and a supportive enviroment. 7 days was not very long to regain your bearings!
Some exposure to the different units and managers to find one that fits for you would be helpful but I have to agree that per diem would be difficult. I think you'd find even less support cause they would expect you to be self-sufficient and might be even less tolerant of questions
Was there an educator or anyone you could reach put to? Coworkers from the past that could help put in a good word? Possibly a clinic at the hospital while you get your computer skills back? Do they have internships for experienced nurses like what I did in your area? Be willing to think out of the box.
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I did take extra effort to thank one of them for her patience, and I understood how frustrating training can be. That didn't help.. today I got "canned" so to speak.