Okay so what do you do about management that walks all over you and doesn't realize they are doing it? It's really hard to keep up your confidence when they treat you like they only respect you when there is nobody better around. Example: I work nights - an evening person come in to help out, and they put that person in charge and gave me patients rather than just giving her pts. Not that I particularly wanted to be in charge, but they have been having me do it a lot lately - I was just starting to get some confidence in myself. So this person who came in to help didn't even want to be in charge - she said "I didn't sign up for this - just give me pts!" - she is rarely in charge on her normal shift and doesn't like it in the first place. I got kind of ticked that they would put someone from another shift in charge and made a sarcastic remark, and then they ended up putting me in charge anyway, which made me even more angry because then I felt like they were doing the, "oh just give the baby what she wants" routine.
Why on earth would they put someone who is unfamiliar with the shift routine? To me, it says that I am only good enough if there is nobody better around. Whether that is true or not, my NM, who is great most of the time, walks all over me like constantly. Every time I start to feel like they appreciate and trust me, they do something like this (her or the ANM, but usually her). I've tried to talk to her about it. She's so oblivious. She doesn't get it, and she doesn't see what I'm talking about. She has no idea she is doing it, but she has treated me like a second class citizen ever since I started there. People say she plays favorites, but she says she doesn't. I don't think she hates me or anything like that, I just feel like she doesn't respect me. I think it would be easier to accept if she did hate me. I can't stand it anymore. I want to get a new job but I haven't found anything yet - I hope something comes along soon, because I feel like I'm about to explode! What would you do in this situation? Did I overreact to her putting someone from a different shift in charge? Maybe I'm just reading more into it than I should, but it kills me to feel like they don't value me. Thanks!!!
