So my problem is basically that I hate nursing, but I feel like I am stuck doing it. I was originally an art major, but switched to nursing on the advice of family when I got dx. with MS in my freshman year of college (the general idea was that I would make a lot of money and have good health insurence). For WHATEVER reason, I listened to them, and ended up graduating becuase everybody said that I would definitly find a job I like because there is such a shortage of nurses and so many different kinds of jobs.
Well, I've been a nurse for 5 months now, and I still hate it. I hate working with people, I don't like dealing with families, and i feel like i am just pushing meds at everyone and thats it. I also have a very low tolerance for stress, and am very sensitive.
I worked as a tech (bascially an advanced CNA) in the hospital for 2 years, and then as an RN on the same unit (med/surg and subacute) for a couple months. The pace is just rediculous, and I just couldn't stand it, so I had to quit. Now I work at a nursing home, that USED to be really great, but I guess now its going downhill...
For example, tonight I was the only nurse who was actually "assigned" to work our unit (40 pts, many pretty acute for a nursing home, lots of post op rehab) so the 2 day nurses had to split the shift and stay over. Then there was an admit, so the one other nurse that was with me had to do that all shift, while I had a med tech (can only pass meds, but there are TONS of narcs and tx. on this unit) to help out, but she was also helping on another unit....!! I felt like i was going to pass out by the end.
I need a nursing job that is slow paced, and not too much involved in pt. care. I just can NOT find anything in this area, esp. somewhere that will hire someone with less than 2-3 years expiereince. Help! I'm only 23, and I am so depressed all the time. I cry before i have to go into work! But I don't know what else to do, basically I need a job that pays at least 19-20$/hr to pay the bills (me and my fiancee's--student loans, credit cards, etc), but I can't think of or find anything other than what I have now. I don't know what to do. Some times I daydream that I got in a car crash, but I am happy just because i wouldn't have to go into work.
*end venting* Thanks to anyone who actually reads all this! lOL...
