I recently got my RN about 5 months ago and have been employed on a medsurg unit. It is a very busy unit that is at times understaffed and it is a lot to adjust to. I started with 2 other nurses and we have all made mistakes, however I made a very big mistake that is resulting in having a 3 day suspension from work . I am horrified that it even happened (dont worry nobody died or was harmed!), and I have definitely learned from my mistake and have completely changed the way I do everything. The problem is that now I am paranoid of making any mistake at all and I fear going to work every day because I am afraid any mistake at all will get me fired. Even though I made this mistake, I still feel as though I am a good nurse, and I always try my best.
I really want to change jobs and work at a nursing home because I realize that maybe I am just not cut out to be a medsurg nurse on a very busy unit. The problem is that I do not know how to go about applying, since I am not sure if I should put my current employer on there or not. I know that I will not get a good reference from them, so I am tempted to leave them off since I have only worked there for 5 months. Is this dishonest to do this? What would you suggest would be my best course of action to find a job that is less hectic and stressful?
Thank you so much for your reply!! This whole thing is very disturbing to me .