I'm just a few weeks away from graduating from my accelerated nursing program. I've done well in classes and feel capable of doing well on the NCLEX, however, I feel that I'm the most depressed I've ever been. I dread going to my senior practicum (my preceptor has been amazing, the staff is very supportive) but I feel like throwing up before every shift. I feel that nursing (at least the type I've been exposed to) is something I could be good at but is not fulfilling, does not motivate me to come back, and does not make me happy.
With graduation approaching, I'm becoming even more concerned because I need to apply for jobs/pass nclex and I don't even know if I'm going to like what I'm doing. I realize a lot of this depression may stem from the fact that I haven't seen my family in six months, I don't have many close friends here, and I'm in a lot of debt... but those aside, I still feel very unhappy and incompetent. Is this normal, and if so, what have you guys done that helps?
I also feel trapped because I have to work for several years regardless to pay off my loans. Ahhh!
