Mentally drained and fed up with LPN Program

[Sandy 8792]

Helo,

I am currently in the last month of my LPN Program but it is getting really tough.

I was supposed to be done in April but I had failed MED-SURG which prompted me to completely ransacked my life by leaving my reliable full-time job that paid for my expenses and tuition in other to get in the next class and not have to wait a year. But from day one I knew that I did not like the professor, nor the way she teaches. I worked hard and barely hold on for 4 months and now I am on the very last month literally 25 days. But instead of teaching us, she comes up with a surprise not part of the schedule or the syllabus because she and her teaching partner who was supposed to teach us skills since VCOVID-19 is preventing us from going to Clinicals feels like we (the adults who are all in our mid to late 20's even some in 30's and 40's) don't interact much, and it will be beneficial to teach us how to get along with many different types of people (as if we don't get enough of that in our jobs which we have to do in order to pay for lives and tuition). The initial professor that I had before flunking MED-SURG was going to have an actual Pediatric Nurse come and do a presentation on PEDS for us, but not here.

What is more annoying is that she gave us the Project now at the very end when we have our very first 3 weeks off which she has packed with;

1. this group project that she assigned partners,
2. we have to study for our very last PEDS chapter which EXAM is the same day we come back.
3. Also the very next day we have an ATI EXAM that will pretty much either keep or kick us out of the program if we fail.
4. Also, we have to Start our ATI Module review in the same 3 weeks.

Most of us were trying to get ourselves situated and breathe.

It does not help to talk to her for she always she when she went to Nursing school she did not have a life and lost friends, all the while ignoring that none of us were complaining about losing friends. Some students me included did not have a fixed job and rent issues. Most people complain about having had to lose their jobs and not spending time with their children's. We use to be virtual but now back on Campus full time but still have to do tons of work online by ourselves once were get out of 5 hours (teacher rambles on seem disorganized about the assignment, students socializing).

I am completely drained and tired of attending her class but her class is the only one at my Unit unless I want to wait 2 months until the next class gets to my Unit and extend this nightmare for another 4 months. To make mather worst I feel like the school is trying to scam us out of the Government AIDS which we applied for and was approved back in April, they said they would start distributing the $$$ in August since they received more $$$ from the Government and would open the application process for more students, but so far August is almost over and nothing, not only that but we had to re-register and payout of pockets again (which I had to choose between my rent and tuition, not I'm avoiding my landlord like the plague).

I may be confused but will it affect my chances of getting my license if I seek therapy for all this not meds just to talk to someone about all this, cause I just like wake up from a mental lockdown of 4 days( turned the phone off and did not get out bed and all for 4 days). Now I have tones of emails and people to answer to and I am not feeling up to facing anyone. My assigned partner must have talk to the teacher cause now I have a text from her assigning me my own project (which I don't mind) I just don't want any fuss.

[caliotter3]

Be very careful as the instructor could very well use this turn of events to keep you from successfully finishing. Some instructors manufacture situations to trip up students that don’t figure out how to cope with the mind games.

[Squidpdx, CNA, LPN]

Don't worry,  it won't be jeopardizing your license to seek therapy. It really sounds like therapy would be a good idea for you right now! Therapy can help you make a plan for succeeding and can help give some tools for coping through this difficult time. Hang in there, this will pass. You won't be stuck in nursing school forever.