so i have worked on the floor for 8 days now, new grad. I worked three twelves in a row on days and then will be working nights shortly. The first week on the floor was really busy. My preceptor wasn't there the first day and the other two she was charge so i didn't get much attention. The second week went a little better but she still seemed too busy to show me how to chart correctly on the computer, had me running around everywhere trying to find things, and just didn't seem too interested to take the time to show me anything.
The last week with her was horrible. It seemed no mater what i did nothing was right. I thought i was in the wrong until the charge nurse asked if i was okay and that she noticed it as well. The last day I worked with her she told me she was a little concerned. I was only up to three patients, didn't know what to do in an emergency situation, and i needed more time to orientate. Then she gave me five patients that day with all these meds and prn's. i did okay but still felt like i wasn't living up to her expectations. I wasn't fast enough, and she would throw way too much at me at one time. I spent a lot of the time trying to find things or figure out the doc writen orders or figuring out where this medication was held. I went home crying because I knew I did the best I could but it did not seem it was good enough. I wondered what I could do differently the next time and what I could have done better. I always went in with a positive attitude and was ready to learn. I really don't know what went wrong that last week. It went from "you did a good job" the first couple weeks to "I'm a little concerned"!
I got a new preceptor and he is patient, allows me to take my time when I need to, and I did three patient's like a breeze. Today she found out she is not precepting me anymore (I didn't work today). It wasn't my idea to change my preceptor; the charge nurse that confronted me called me up my first day off from the last twelve and said that it may be better to have a different preceptor. I am not knowing what to say when I see her again. I talked to a few other people who have approached me and they noticed her attitude towards me as well. Any advice out there. Oh and by the way, she did precept another grad and they got along realy well...maybe there was something i was doing wrong!!!?
I am glad that the charge nurse said something because I don't want to make any enemies. She (my old preceptor) has worked on that floor for 15+ years. And it's not only her, she has a really good friend on that unit as well, they are joined at the hip. I'm afraid that both are going to treat me differently now. I'm not saying I though she was someone who "ate their young" just that her teaching style and my personality and the way I learn were not working together.
Anyone out there who was a preceptor to a new grad and the new grad left you for a different preceptor not because you were not good at being a preceptor but because your personalities did not match. And when you found out you were not going to precept that person anymore how did you feel and act towards that new grad the next time you saw them. I am so lost, I just don't want any enemies. :uhoh21: