Hello. I get the best advice from this website and spilling out all my feelings here is quite therapeutic LOL. I have been a nurse since May 2020. I was thrown right into this Covid mess and I have reached my breaking point. I started at a nursing home because it was the only job that was hiring new grads and stayed for 3 months. I received an opportunity on a telemetry floor and took it. It was a very small community hospital. The staffing got so bad where for 4 months straight I had 7-8 patients, I was on top of that precepting and being charge nurse.
I always had goals to go into critical care. So after a little over a year of being at this small community hospital I got a job on a surgical step down unit in one of the biggest hospitals in my state. I have been at this job now for 4 months and I have absolutely reached my breaking point. Every shift I have 6 patients and NO tech. My orientation was cut 1 month early because they are so short staffed. I just cannot do this anymore. I am going to get certified in botox and filler but I wanted a job outpatient. I am torn. I feel like if I leave this job I look unreliable. My mental health is the worst it has ever been. I cry before each shift and I cannot sleep the night before because of my anxiety. On my days off I feel so crippled because I just think of my next shift.
I do not know what to do. Stick it out for more experience and stick it out for my resume or leave ? This is technically my 3rd job since 2020. nursing home; 3 months --> telemetry; 1 yr 2 months --> surgical step down; 4 months. I would appreciate any kind of guidance. My parents do not think I should be a nurse at all because I am so depressed at every job which discourages me. My boyfriend is supportive but does not know how to guide me. I graduated at a horrible time where new grads were not being hired so I feel like I got screwed. And then I was thrown into the mess of covid healthcare. I tried and tried but bedside is not for me. What should I do? ?
HiddenAngels
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I was trying not to scare people completely away ?