New Nurse And Already I Want Out

[Never say "QUIET&quot]

Sorry it's so long and most likely incoherent I'm writhing out of anger.....

I decided to go back to school and became an LPN and have been one for a short time.

LPN school was pretty easy for me, I got a lot of job offers right off the bat, the facility I chose pays well and is located close to my home but that's where the smooth sailing ended.

I work with nut cases.

I feel like the Dr's personal secretary, my NSG Supervisors shrink, my NSG co workers referee and my CNA's babysitter.

I'm far from a shrinking violet and can hold my own but this is like working for the WWE.

I'm embarrassed to admit but this has to be one of the most UN professional professions I have ever seen.

Gossip, backbiting, fighting (sometimes physical) , power struggles, lazy co workers, threats of your licence getting taken away from you if you don't everything a supervisor tells you, it's a regular soap opera every day. My staff spends most of the time dodging call bells, sleeping, smoking and trying to "hook up" with anything male or female that walks through the door.

I have about 10 hours worth of paperwork to do along with caring for my patients and I have to do this within my 8 hour shift. I come early, leave late and don't get a break.

If my teachers told me there would be this much paperwork I would have NEVER gone through with the school really I have never seen such a waste of time as redundant paperwork. I have been told to my face unofficially by my Supervisor that the most important thing on the two floors is the paperwork, it comes before anything else. Like a smart a** I said "even before the patients safety" and I was told Yes, as long as the paperwork is written up properly they will "look" safe.

This scares me and makes me sick in the stomach at the same time. Most of my patients have no family so they really don't give to much thought to them and their well being.

I'm not looking to be a martyr and I want to leave this place but I feel like no one is going to look after my patients if I go and the guilt is killing me.

I've tried writing letters with nice suggestions and they are just blown off, if you complain they find a way to screw you, write you up then report you to the Union.

I do have it better than several of my school mates who have it worse.

I mean what do I do? Do I report the place to the State? The Union? The board of labor?

I dread going in to work everyday.

[gt4everpn, BSN, RN]

welcome to the club! here's a hug! (((hug))) :icon_hug:

the nursing profession sems to attract a fair share of women with low self-esteems and other personal issues. people who live with chronically low self esteems desire a whole lot of of validation and ego-boosting in order to feel better about themselves. unfortunately, the quickest way for some of these nurses with low self esteem to feel temporarily better about themselves is to gossip, tattle, start catfights, snitch on coworkers, throw their weight around, write other nurses up, make idle threats, bully people around, or report petty wrongdoings. the troubled nurse feels a sense of control every time she does something to affect someone else, and her low self esteem receives a false lift upward.

[color=#483d8b]i know right!!! i worked with this nurse who first of all walked in 1hr 15 min late, then she starts trashing the night nurse, ''oh the night nurse didn't do this and that, blah, blah, blah,'' i just smile and nod thinking wait a minute you're trashing the night nurse but you walked in over an hour late!! my ltc facility is good, but from the time i walked in all i heard was who was getting written up etc... it seems this is all nurses do, see what they can write eachother up for! i don't believe in write up's, unless someone is really negligent, careless, and sloppy! otherwise than that we all make mistakes! i keep my cool though, haven't gotten written up yet!!

[Leo2]

Your first obligation i s to your pts. If this place is not putting them first report them to the state and leave. I have been an L.P.N. for 21yrs. and I wouldn't work anywhere that put paperwork first. You can always find another job. These are humans in your care,who is going advocate for them if you dodn't? Leo2