Lost hope :(

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Ok so I don't really know where to begin! Today was my first training day at my new job, which is like no other place I have ever seen nor heard of. The sound and classroom training had me so eager to start and build a relationship with the patients! Well today I have spent 90% of the shift crying (which is pretty unlike me). My trainer was an older nurse with 20+ years experience so I thought wow I'm going to learn so much, boy was I wrong. I come in she throws the MARS on the table says here's the meds (in a cabinet, which is sooo out of my element) and then she says set up your meds and she leaves... Well I don't really feel comfortable pre poping meds especially on people I don't know... Well long story short she comes back makes several rude comments and then starts freaking out. Amongst the crisis of her melt down the PTs come to the window ( which again I'm not used to) and she starts telling me to give them meds. I'm running like crazy.. Point of the story I made a med error which I have never done and it broke my heart. I have always prided myself on being a prudent nurse. I take complete responsibly for the med error but I'm just soo upset that I feel like I was set up to fail! I guess my question is are there still caring nurses out there? I became a nurse to help and I took this job because I loved what it was all about but seeing in one day how unprofessional and rude people are just makes me lose hope! I mean she didn't just talk to me like this it was the PTs as well. Maybe I am naive and what not but I have been nursing alone now for about 2 years and I already feel burnt out but I don't take that out on the people who need me most.

Thank you :) well I was suppose to go back today for my last training shift lol it's 5 am and I'm crying and anxious.. My husband sat me down and told me no job should make me feel this way and asked me not to go back. I think I'm taking his advice, we just recently found out we are expecting and I'm in a brand new town so talk about a lot of change and stress. So I have decided at 5 am that my license and health is not worth it. I can see why they have such a high turn over rate.. I only took this job to keep up on my skills and keep my mind busy, which neither I would have been getting in this situation. I hope I made the correct decision -_- I appreciate all the feedback and support

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