I know there is no miracle tool, however im having a rather hard time of it lately. Ive made quite a few mistakes of my own making, through distraction and loss of focus. I have been working for a year, i do not have years of experience so i am trying to build and develop skills on a unit which has been pretty much crippled by short staffing for quite a while.
Now i know how easy it can be to loose focus but i have been trying hard and it seems no matter how hard i try something somewhere trips me up. I gave some wrong labels to a mom for some breastmilk and i am so thankful she noticed but it made me feel so low as i was working a 12 hour night shift and this was right in the morning near to the shift ending. I wasnt happy. In fact i was mentally shouting at myself because ive worked so damn hard all night with short staffing.
Its building up on me, the tiredness and fatigue. My shifts at times i dont think have been spaced out. I dont feel ive had many days off either. I feel depressed with the unit and the situation and now its getting to the point where i think oh god what is it going to be like. Will we have 5/6/7/8 patients each.
It has been like that where my head starts to spin and i start feeling lightheaded and sick. Mistakes shouldnt happen but i know when im exhausted and tired thats when i can loose my focus.
Im very upset about the labels as ive been striving so hard to do everything right. I feel like somewhere sometimes something trips me up.
I dont know if i should look for another job ad i dont feel happy like i once did. Im miserable and find it hard to not think about work and worry.
I feel like a crap nurse who is trying to stay sane and in one piece. 😢
