Looking for Advice about failure

[Decisions7]

Hi everyone,

People fail at all sorts of things. failure is a part of life etc etc insert something profound here.

Let me cut to the chase: I am extremely close to failing this semester. If I make one more mistake such as: Failing a demonstration test, showing up late to clinical, making a mistake at clinical, or not doing paperwork correctly.

If I do any one of these things I am done. I had 2 lives. like if you have ever played Mario and you are given 3 lives to beat the level. I am down to my last life in this semester.

You would think this would motivate me to work extremely hard and make it through this but it has the complete opposite effect.

I have 2 more demonstration tests to get through. I have to repeat the IV test I failed today and then demonstrate NG. I also have 7 whole days of clinicals to survive.

So here are my 3 choices:

1. Audit the course, sit through the lectures, get a job, prepare to repeat the course. I won't be able to sit for the tests, and I don't think I get to continue to go to clinical. I won't get an "F" (my life) on my transcript.

2. Work really hard at passing clinical and demonstration tests, go to class but reduce exam studying time so I can get a job. Probably repeat the course. Ive lost motivation to study as much as I have.

3. Keep doing what I'm doing. Try to stay motivated. Continue to drain my bank account. Probably repeat the course.

I am looking for advice on what you all think I should do, and what you would do in my shoes.

[Apple-Core, ASN, BSN, RN]

If it was me, I would look deeper into why you are being your own worst enemy? There is no excuse for turning up late, and mistakes on paperwork are fine once, but are you repeating them? It sounds to me that you are getting in your own way...what is the cause of that??

If it was me, I would knuckle down and put in 200% effort.

[Avill, BSN, RN]

Gosh this brings back memories of my first semester, I wrote an article which you can read here.

But let me say something I didn't say in that article. When I was in my maternity rotation the professor threatened to fail me. She said I wasn't doing my family visit when in reality she had declined every family I brought up to her. It got so bad she even wanted to give me an extra assignment just because, my classmates even advocated on my behalf and said it wasn't fair.

I was about to quit, I was miserable, but then my friends dad had a little talk with me.

He told me that when he was in Chiropractic school he had a test he had to do and had not studied for it (I guess he had test dates set from the beginning and they had to study at their own pace) so he went to a professor and asked if he could take it the next date, which they replied no too. So what he ended up doing was borrowing his friends notes from the class, locked himself in a room for a week and took the test. He passed. Moral of the story, you can stretch more than you think, I don't know how your program works or your future endeavors, but if you gave it you all and somehow fail, then whatever. Just finish.

Just my opinion, but you can do it!