Life has been hard. Just failed the NCLEX a 3rd time. In two different states I need help

[Victoria888]

The day before nursing school I caught my husband cheating on me.  I managed to keep my head in the game and went on with school.  I filed for divorce.  Things got icky. I failed and had to join another cohort.  I managed to finally graduate in July 2018.  Divorce was finalized. Depression was high. Ex husband is a cop, he got cyfd involved.  He took the took the kids on his time and slapped me with a restraining order.  I was fighting to get my kids back and struggling to study and pay lawyers and pay for my exam.  I got it scheduled fall of 2019, failed. Managed to go to court hearing and custody hearings.  Applied an again that November to test again. Failed.  He worked the system and I hadn’t seen my kids in months. With no license, no other degree. Jobless and hopeless I fell back on my skill as a mechanic. Prior Air Force mechanic…a local diesel shop hired me and I worked there for two years getting my life back in order. Custody battles against a cop is not cool. Proved myself over and over.  Work was a distraction.  I can do a full engine swap but for 15 bucks an hour it wasn’t paying bills, lawyers or groceries.  I started studying again, I timed out in New Mexico so I applied to El Paso, got it, failed.  I’m now timed out in texas.  I need help.  I’m waiting to hear if back from California if I can test there.  I’m crying, I’m discouraged. I finally have kids back and things are somewhat normal.  I need a win here. I’m feeling like everything I have been through has shoved me down the drain for a reason and I’m feeling sorry for myself.   My goal is to be a flight nurse at some point.  I’d be qualified to fix the plane, patient and vehicles that service the flight line.  But I feel that will never happen.  I need some support or love or something that will breathe life back into me.  Oof that’s a lot but no one understands the heartache of failing the NCLEX like other nurses.  Help?