So I graduated in May of last year. Started work in August as an RN. Will be at my current job for 9 months in mid May. It took me a good 5 months to be okay and get somewhat comfortable. We started doing barcoding and EMAR documentation almost a month ago. Now I am back to square one. I feel stupid, ignorant, and down on myself. Almost 9 months in and I feel like I did at the beginning. Right now I am struggling with myself and trying so hard to be a good nurse. I love my patients so much and I care for them so much. I just feel like I am missing something. Quite simply, I feel like a bad nurse. I've made my mistakes, I've learned from them. I try to do what's right and I try so hard not to miss anything. But sometimes it is apparent that you are going to miss a thing or two and you're going to make mistakes. I am so scared of hurting someone that I'm almost at the point of non-functional. I am just ready for something new.