Just a little venting. That's all.

[ANH_RN]

So I graduated in May of last year. Started work in August as an RN. Will be at my current job for 9 months in mid May. It took me a good 5 months to be okay and get somewhat comfortable. We started doing barcoding and EMAR documentation almost a month ago. Now I am back to square one. I feel stupid, ignorant, and down on myself. Almost 9 months in and I feel like I did at the beginning. Right now I am struggling with myself and trying so hard to be a good nurse. I love my patients so much and I care for them so much. I just feel like I am missing something. Quite simply, I feel like a bad nurse. I've made my mistakes, I've learned from them. I try to do what's right and I try so hard not to miss anything. But sometimes it is apparent that you are going to miss a thing or two and you're going to make mistakes. I am so scared of hurting someone that I'm almost at the point of non-functional. I am just ready for something new.

[RandomRN]

Hey ANH_RN,

I'm sorry to hear things are frustrated for you right now, and it may comfort you to know everyones been there at one point or another. You mentioned about 6 months into the hospital you started feeling comfortable? Were you enjoying the job when you were comfortable? New systems are hard on everyone, but once your comfortable with it you will get back to enjoying things. Nobody enjoys not knowing how to do something.

Try and target the areas you know your weak in, and do your best to get them straightened out. And always try and put your patient's first.

I hope you can get through it.

[ANH_RN]

Hey ANH_RN,

I'm sorry to hear things are frustrated for you right now, and it may comfort you to know everyones been there at one point or another. You mentioned about 6 months into the hospital you started feeling comfortable? Were you enjoying the job when you were comfortable? New systems are hard on everyone, but once your comfortable with it you will get back to enjoying things. Nobody enjoys not knowing how to do something.

Try and target the areas you know your weak in, and do your best to get them straightened out. And always try and put your patient's first.

I hope you can get through it.

Yeah, after a while I started feeling better and I started actually loving my job. I never thought that such a huge change in technology would throw me for a loop and send me back to square one. I always feel like I'm missing something and I am doing a bad job. I know I just have to be strong and make it through this. Thanks for the encouragement!

[TuTonka]

Nursing is ever changing and will always change. It is fast paced and always has been. I was told once by a very wise person.....You will learn something every day . Jf you don't it is time to leave nursing. I think you do learn something new every day. Sometimes it is a challege and other times in is a new way to do something. You are not alone in your endevors and if you think it is (whatever) wrong do not be afraid to ask questions of your NM they will help you. Good Luck.