Just got caught...

@ Surfing: It's difficult to know for sure from your post, but if you have just been caught diverting narcotics from your workplace, you have pretty much 2 options if you wish to keep your license. You will either have to self-report to your state's program for assistance for drug/alcohol abuse for nurses, or you will be reported by your facility to the BON. Depending on the circumstances, a lawyer that is experienced in defending nurse's licensure may be in order & helpful. Either way, if you have a substance abuse problem, you will just have to do whatever is in front of you. It's a long, difficult, painful (in more ways that one) process- sorry to not sugar-coat, but that's the way it is, & you might as well know it up front. Life as you have known it is over for many years- but it is doable, as long as you are willing. I wish you the best of luck- please keep us posted- you will find much-needed support & good advice & friends here on this board!!!

You are going to be okay. I wish someone could have told me that 40 days ago, but it really is true. Once your mind clears you will start seeing possibilities. Im not saying there isn't stress, up until a couple days ago it took an equal amount of energy for me to be both terrified/depressed as optimistic/hopeful. I have a fair idea what will become of my lisence but at the same time I've experienced a world of different oportunities. The best one being that I'm not dead. You'll get there. The best thing I read on this site was someone who said "what a fine line between humility and humiliation, gratitude is imbeded within that thin line". Don't drive yourself crazy reading too much of this site, everyone's experience is different and yours will be unique, limit yourself on how far you'll let crazy take you. And while life as you know it may be over, be honest with yourself about what that life was. If it was was drug induced terror daily, then different isn't so terrible.