In need of some advice..

[IndecisiveRN97]

Hello everyone. I just need some advice please. I've been an RN for 2 years. Did medsurg and left after a year due to burnout. Then used an agency and worked in an office setting for 4 months. Felt like I was losing my skills (also hated M-F 8-5 pm) so I transitioned back into the hospital (medsurg again). Left because they wanted to take me off orientation earlier than expected because I was doing "good". I asked for 2 more weeks and they didn't want to give it. Now I've been out of a job for 2 months. I feel like a failure. I feel as if I should have made more progress into my career by now (ACLS, specialty certifications, being charge, running codes etc) but I haven't. I would like some stability, (longevity in a specialty, moving out, building a retirement fund etc) but I can't keep a job for long. I don't like nursing homes or doctors offices, and that's all that's in my area. My dream job would be pre/op and pacu but nobody wants to hire me without experience, especially seeing my resume (longest job 1 year). I keep wanting to get more hospital skills but the ratios right now makes me never want to go back. And many outpatient jobs are M-F 8-5 which I feel is not a great work life balance. IDK what to do. I may just do a flu clinic gig to earn some income. I also lack confidence in myself which may cause another issue. If anyone would like to mentor me that would be nice. Just someone to hold me accountable and help me progress in my career. 

[hppygr8ful, ASN, RN, EMT-I]

One thing is you keep referring to your self as  newer nurse. At two years in you should be approaching a sense of mastery with many aspects of nursing. But you are not staying anywhere long enough to do that. One thing that truely annoys me about gen z is the idea that we should all have our dream job that we are blissfully happy at and totally fulfilled.  Nursing is hard and it's called work  because that's what it is. I do enjoy many aspects of my current job but I took it years ago when I didn't have a lot of options and didn't have a choice but to stick it out. There were times I came home in tears feeling utterly defeated - but I kept going back and gradually it got better and easier and I am a valued member of an awsome team these days but would never have reached this level if I hadn't stuck it out.