A little bit about me I am 22 years old and have always been interested in the medical field. I worked as an EMT for a year and liked it a lot so gradually I set my head into getting a nursing degree. I have spent 2 years on the prereqs and even volunteered in the hospitals in Africa on my semester off school and finally applied to nursing schools beginning of this year. I got into a couple and I am currently in my first week of nursing school...so now what's the problem? Well I am not sure if nursing is my love and passion and it's a terrifying feeling to have going into nursing school.
I have always loved and wanted to pursue a career in writing and working in the film industry. Both my parents are involved in it and I grew up loving the environment but I also know how competitive it is to be successful in it so I looked into working in a healthcare setting. I found nursing solely on that people tell me it's a good degree, with a stable job, and salary. Im not much of a nurturing person, but I'm great at tolerating blood and other body fluids most people feel uncomfortable with so I thought I would give nursing a shot.
We had 3 days of orientation and bootcamp to prep for nursing school and I have felt so sick to my stomach about whether or not nursing is right for me. I don't hate nursing but I don't love it either and becoming a nurse is something you should feel really passionate about because the best nurses are the ones that love their jobs.
Im stuck in this weird situation because I have worked so hard in my prereqs and getting into nursing school for the past 2 years and now that I'm finally in the program I'm really scared that I'll be questioning my decision and in the long run it'll just be a good job and not something I love doing. A lot of people (including my therapist) are telling me to stick with it and earn my nursing degree to have a degree and a stable "back up plan" and work on pursuing my real dreams after I finish school but is that really the case? In the real world do people really get nursing degrees as a "back up plan"? To me that just sounds insane.
So here I am asking in tears and doubt, should I listen to my second guessing? Or Am I just psyching myself out before I really get into the program? Again I don't hate nursing but I don't love it and I'm scared it's a job that I'll lose interest in along the line. I'm also scared that if I don't pursue nursing after working so hard to get into it that I will be looked at and feel like a failure.
Sorry for the novels but I have lost so much sleep because my mind is running a million miles a minute over this. Any advice will be appreciative! Thank you so much.
