Im soooo nervous!

JentheRN05, RN · Aug 22, 2005

Well, I thought I was going to start the NUR program this Fall, but I chickened out at the last minute & missed my opportunity to get into the classes I need. So now I have to wait another semester to start school & another year to be accepted (hopefully) into the NUR program.
A little about me: I have a beautiful one year old daughter & am happily married. I currently work as a medical secretary in a OBGYN office (been there for 3 yrs). I dont have a degree yet but have been in & out of college since 1993. I have tons of credit hours & a large student loan debt but no degree. My husband teases my about this, so I dont want to let him down or myself. I fear that I will get nervous & quit school...I have a tendency to do this. When the going gets tough, I quit!
Ive been researching the NUR program since last Dec. Im so nervous: I have all these what if's in my mind.. Ive considered other majors, but none of them get me as excited as becoming a Nurse? All the opportunities, helping others, meeting people it just excites me so much.
Can I really do this?

Yes you can. I was alot like you, I put it off and put it off. Went through several jobs in the medical field but just knew eventually I would have to "grow some balls" and get enrolled to be a nurse. Finally at 30 I decided putting it off any longer wasn't going to get me anywhere. Sure it was hard, and many times I thought of quitting. But I had a wonderful instructor who was personally responsible for me staying in school. One time I was having serious problems at home. I had went in that day to quit. I was crying, desperate to hold onto something. She told me how good of a nurse I would be. That I was stronger than most and that I CAN do this.

I am an RN now - me and the instructor are friends. She pinned me at my graduation, no one else could do it, it had to be her. She was a huge influence in my life.

What you need to do is find a strong support person. Someone that will tell you until they are blue in the face "YES YOU CAN!!!" and mean it. Someone that takes the time to believe in you, and show you that you can believe in yourself. Once that is done, you won't want to give up. Because once you believe in yourself, you realize self worth, and how much of a value you are to your patients and how much of a difference you can make in their lives.

Good luck!

Spearfisher · Aug 22, 2005

I wouldn't have went into my program if I considered quiting as an option. Commit yourself to doing it, then do it. There was a story I heard once: A kid complained to his grandfather he couldn't climb over the fence behind his house. His grandfather told him if he really wouldn't to climb over the fence he could help him. The boy assured his grandfather that he wanted to be able to climb the fence. The grandfather asked if there was any other way to get in the yard other than climbing the fence. The boy said no the fence went all the way around and the gate was always locked. The grandfather said okay are you ready? The boy excitedly said yes getting almost giddy. Then his grandfather reached over and grabbed the boys hat (that he knew the boy loved very much and was proud to have) and threw it over the fence. The grandfather said go get your hat. The boy made it over the fence then back over into his yard again with his new confidence. Sorry so long. I keep this story in the back in my head and occasionally, when the going gets tough, throw my hat over the fence. Quitting should not be an option. You can really do it if you throw your hat over the fence.

Good Luck.