I have been a nurse for a year, I was lucky enough to find a job straight out of school. After 9 months at my mediocre first job, I was lucky enough to land my dream job... overnights in the ED of a very busy level II hospital not too far from my house!!! I can't even believe how lucky I am that the director of the emergency room decided to give me a chance. I am on my second week of orientation and will starting out on the floor on Monday... I am so excited!!! I am the mother of 2 young girls and this schedule will work out fantastically with their school, and me being home more.
So what's the problem you might say???? Well, I just found out I'm pregnant... (let me just preface this whole thing by saying that I AM happy I am going to have another baby.. all children are blessing, and I can't wait to meet my new little one).. I can't even believe that I am writing those words. I can't say that I didn't want to have another child, but the timing, is really just so off!! I can't even believe that after working at this new job for 9 months, 5 months on my own, I will have to go on maternity leave. To be honest I feel like an idiot... This job is the perfect opportunity for me, they hired me with only my associates degree, and they have magnet status!! I can't help but feel dread when thinking about telling my manager that I'm pregnant. And who knows if my job will be there after I am done with maternity leave. I am just in shock, and I don't know what to do... The only thing I can think of is that saying that goes "if you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans".
Are there any mothers who have had a similar experience?? Any advice on how to make the ED and motherhood x3 work???? I am just thinking about a newborn, and working overnights, and being up all night, and not being able to sleep during the day. And my manager, this woman is amazing, and so smart and really giving me a chance by giving me a job, I almost feel like I'm going to disappoint her!!!
And I really just needed to vent to some anonymous people who will maybe offer some advice. I have been listening to my husband tell me for 3 days that everything is going to be ok, and I KNOW it is.. but I don't think you can really understand if you're not living the nurse life.
Specializes in Infusion Nursing, Home Health Infusion.
You have every right to have a life and also be gainfully employed. As a matter of fact every day that you get up,put on your scrubs and go to work you are taking care of your children and supporting your life and your dependents. Take one day at a time,plan as you go and keep on working..it will all work out. Other women have done it and so can you! Whenever I believed I could not manage something my mom would always tell me that and then always managed to find a way..sometimes it was rocky...yes..but I always managed!
iluvivt, BSN, RN
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You have every right to have a life and also be gainfully employed. As a matter of fact every day that you get up,put on your scrubs and go to work you are taking care of your children and supporting your life and your dependents. Take one day at a time,plan as you go and keep on working..it will all work out. Other women have done it and so can you! Whenever I believed I could not manage something my mom would always tell me that and then always managed to find a way..sometimes it was rocky...yes..but I always managed!