hi, first post on here so please bear with me. My stomach has been in knots for the entire day... Ok so here:
I started nursing school this year and have been doing AMAZING. I study, I do my work, I do well on exams, I ask questions if I do not know something, I take constructive criticism well, etc. I started clinicals a few weeks ago and was doing great, got great weekly reviews and so on. Then, my instructor was replaced by an old school instructor who everyone has feared and hated since she has worked there. Us new students have heard stories about her.
Anyway, she is a psych nurse, knows her stuff, is very informative, but is so mean spirited and condescending to me that I literally have knots in my stomach. Anyway, she has been consistently telling me I am unsafe... I don't see it. I've asked peers and staff members of the facility I'm at and they said it's false. So I've kind of put up with it until last week, she yet agai insisted on embarrassing me in front of people and really for no reason. I want to do well, I like to do well, I work hard, but when I do something as little as look away for a split second, she claps in my face and says I'm "like an autistic child" who likes shiny things and gets distracted easily.
Anyway, our first instructor told us we could make copies of charts and black patient info our (for assignments and care plans,etc) but yesterday out of habit, like I've done with my friends in class where we take a picture of a handout we got in lecture and send to the other ones to make sure we all have everything we need, I took my phone out at clinical while looking at a patients chart I had, DID NOT take a picture but admit I first by habit was going to, then put it away after a split second (I'm not that stupid) and made copies and covered the patients info.
Today I got called by my school director for a meeting. I wasn't allowed to go to clinical because the instructor who I swear is all over my butt for everything, told the director I took a photo of a chart. I %100 did not, but iof course admitted that yes I took my phone out by habit. Then realized oh crap, not lecture right now! Hipaa! I even had the copies I made along with the assignment that was due corresponding to the copies that I made and handed them over, but I have the sickest feeling in my stomach I've honestly ever had. If it were any other instructor I wouldn't be worried. I was about to make a huge mistake and then snapped out of it, I know better. Is this something I can be dismissed over?
Also, the instructor never came to me about it- I was honest with the director because I have nothing to lie about, but I feel like it has almost been a shot at sabotaging me. I have remained mature in the entire "communication" problem with this teacher, spoken to her, asked her what I can be doing to help myself, to no avail. She refuses to even speak like adults. I have had her laugh in my face and mock what I say so I have just been taking it. Plus anymore details on this woman's personality belongs on another thread.
i am more concerned with how I feel like I am guilty until proven innocent. Does anyone know what I should do? I've told the truth how this fifteen seconds happened, I'm not sure what else to do.
