I started working again on ltc, but first day on the job on my own I made a horrible horrible mistake. As I write this I am trembling and crying and I feel so sick towards myself that I am nauseous and wanna throw up. What happened was someone was found on the floor by a cna. i had someone's meds and insulin on my hands, I set those on the table because I was gonna help the cna, but then I also thought if i let go of the meds, what if someone comes along and eats up the meds or stick themselves with the insulin. another cna came up so I told her to help the other cna lift the patient up. I went to give the meds. Then i don't know what i did anymore. I think someone started asking me their pain meds or something. My intention was to go give the med then go back to the fall patient to assess, but somehow I forgot. So when I got home I was thinking about my day when it occured to me that I did not go back to the fall pt and assess and do an IR . He was not my pt though, but since i was the one who was there first i think i am supposed to make the IR. Or i could just be a witness. I don't know. But I feel really really bad that I didnt do anything. I am so sick of myself, I deserve to die. I feel that I'm a horrible nurse, even though this is only my 6th day as one, assess and write an IR is a basic thing to do with a fall, and i know that, i know why it is so important, and i know the complications if a fall is not followed through...so i am asking myself where the hell was my mind. I wanna talk to someone but I don't know who to talk to, I am scared to death. I don't know if the nurse who had the pt made an IR...i am praying so hard that she did. I really think I shouldnt be a nurse. This is such a horrible horrible mistake.
