Ok im am very upset with myself to the point of feeling i should drop out of nursing school. Although my grades are great, i have had a difficult time with my clinical instructor (i wrote about him previously). In short, this man teaches through humiliation and intimidation. I didnt think i could bear with him, but i did stick out the semester. Well, until the last day when he gave us back our clinical evaluations. Granted, i made a big error because i incorrectly closed an unused syringe - my bad, i will accept the blame. However, he did this same little "test" on my entire clinical class of 10 people, and 7 of the 10 closed this same syringe incorrectly as i did. The problem? He chose to put this on my evaluation in the "safety" threads and say that because of this, i "minimally" fulfill the expectations. I felt absolutely horrible. As i said, i earned this but the catch is, out of the 7 of us who did this wrong, i was the only one who had it brought out on her clinical eval and i now fear that my future clinical instructors will judge me incompetent. Anyway, i needed to vent because i really feel terrible right now and i feel like i will never redeem myself. Any thoughts, suggestions, words of encouragement? I would really love the support. Thanks all!!!
