How did this happen! Help I don't want to be this kind of nurse!!

[female12233]

I've been in nursing for a little while now. I originally started working in a crap LTC facility in the laundry department. I've since then moved up the line every step of the way into the next position. From Laundry to CNA to Med. Tech to Lpn and finally done with RN school and waiting to take my boards next week. WISH ME LUCK!! But that's not the problem. I started at my first hospital experience last November in general I like my fellow nurses but that where it becomes a problem. We're all around the same age, all young twenty somethings and I find that we talk about the patients a lot. Now im sure everyone every once in a while will say pt so and so over here is driving me crazy or if you have frequent visits by the same pt that oh you know whos back again! Only ive noticed that this has started to spread into other patients as well. We do a lot of bariatric surgery on our floor. We see a lot of people come back into the hospital with complaints of nausea and vomiting and of course they get admitted these are also the same type of pt that vomit and then whine because they cant have a diet order. Or we get the patients that come in and they want those drugs by golly. And by no means do they want the po stuff nope it's ivp all the way for them!! I don't want to be a cynical nurse that's not me and I really do like my job i get rare moments that you don't get in nursing in other places. I get to be that compassionate caregiver or that shoulder to cry on. But the other side of me just looks at some pt and goes god why me? Why do i have to have the pt that's probably not even sick and just wants the morphine or that diluadid. Just last time I worked a lady 13wks. preg. got admitted and sent to our floor (which is supposed to be a post-op unit) for get this N/V. go figure pregnant and vomiting but whatever.. I read in her history "pt states she comes in frequently because knows she'll get morphine" Medical Doc said no to morphine but the OB doc came in and said ok 4mg x 1 which she kindly followed up with a "she probables gonna terminate anyway" as if that made everything huncky dorey IDk i'm just incredibly frustrated i guess. I don't want to be like that towards my patients because i know that judging them is affecting the way i care for them wheather or not i want to admit it. Does anyone have an advice? Any coping mechanisms? :icon_roll how do i transform from this nuse to this nurse

[LLLLiiiFFEsaveer]

never judge from the off-going nurses report

I think it all goes in spurts in order for us to survive. We're under a great deal of stress when we work....SOMETHING is needed to get us through it. I think it's a built in defense mechanism. (for long term coping). thanks for your post.

Jenny

OP, This is a good post, thanks...

I have not been a member here for very long. Although, I am sure that from my posts, I'd seem like an uncompassionate person... (that couldn't be further from the truth!).

In my mind, I can keep those thoughts contained when they surface.

Here, on this forum, I had expressed some of those thoughts. (My most recent post) It just resulted in multiple people telling me I was drunk or high...

I guess we all know this is not easy. Never thought it was supposed to be... We all need an outlet. Otherwise, it'll just come out somewhere/somehow else.

Need to find an outlet that works.

Just do not forget the big picture. We are there for them, whomever they are... And they are there for a reason.

It's hard though