It's hard to articulate my feelings about death. In my family, I've dealt with a death of only one family member seven years ago, and to be frank, when he passed away, I got over it within two weeks. However, as I am getting older (I'm only 19) and starting to understand the meaning of life from my perspective, I realize that I get very emotional when a stranger passes away. Whenever I hear that a stranger has passed away, I always ask questions, "why? Why do good people die? Why do we even die?" I may sound dramatic or too philosophical. This is the reason why I lost my religious beliefs - I used to be very religious - when someone whom I know has died this summer.
Upon hearing a stranger's death, that person is forever etched in my mind. I'm not even kidding about it. When I go to sleep, I always, always think about these people who have died. I know I'm way too emotional over these deaths and that's not a good thing, especially when I'm a nursing student. I know that as a nurse, I cannot bawl my eyes out when one of my patient dies.
So, my question is, how do you accept death of your patients?
