I am here to share my thoughts. I have been a nurse for 10months now, and waiting for break through where I can feel good again. I work nights, to which I totally blame all my tiredness and zombie life on but as far as nursing I am not sure what it is doing to me, but im frustrated. anyway....
I listen to alot of spiritual mentors like Joel Osteen, Joyce Meyer,T.D Jakes, and Dr Charles Stanley. In the comforts of my own room I receive their message and am dedicated to apply it to my job so it can be better, Praise the Lord, but when I clock him, LITERALLY everything switches. Im boiling up, annoyed, and not even going to gracefully do my job as I said I was hearing my mentors speak.
One thing I heard yesterday was " You have to do what you have to do, where the lord has placed you to be able to pass and be advanced to the next level. If you don't pass the test you'll never pass the class and you;ll keep taking it over and over and over.". Honestly, I pass sometimes by luck, and fail most times by choice and not understanding how to see this experience as just a stepping stone. I felt so empowered hearing it, and made me feel like I can come to work and be able to work without reminding myself how miserable I am, and how I hate this place.
But the feelings were all still there.
I need to spiritually settle, convince and set my mind and heart on the fact that this is trully an ingredient in my life, and not the final dish. How can I learn this.
