Help, pregnant, working nights and seriously depressed!

[JLB1215]

Hi everyone, I am sure you've seen a post like this a million times before but here it goes... I am a new grad and have been off orientation since September. Ive worked at my hospital since March. I began working nights in september as well and had no problems doing so until I became pregnant. Its like a switch flipped and Im this whole new person!! I am so intensely depressed about working nights its taking over my life. I cry to my husband every time I have to go to work. I am 10 weeks pregnant and I am sure hormones have a lot to do with it but how am I going to be when the baby comes?? I want to switch to days but A.) there are no spots available and B.) days are 10x more intense and physically taxing then nights (I work in a busy ICU). I love the hospital I work at but they really arent flexible with schedules at all. I thought about going part time too since that would be much more manageable for me but there is a huge waiting list for part time positions unless I transfer to another unit. My husband also supported me through school, I have tons of student loans to pay back and now he is transitioning jobs as well. I also need FMLA and provide benefits for my husband and I so not sure if thats even an option. I feel so trapped!! Maybe I can do part time +1 per diem day? Idk any advice from anyone??? I really need help!!

[BSNbeauty, BSN, RN]

I hated nights before pregnancy , during pregnancy and after pregnancy. Nights is not for everyone. Being pregnant and working nights was a nightmare for me.