I'm a new grad who was recently hired PRN by a large hospital on a med surg floor. I haven't even got a set preceptor but rather just follow whoever is around that wants to put up with me. One very experienced nurse has a habit of growling at me when I can't do something correctly. I missed during an in and out cath on a female patient and she acted as if I was the stupidest person in all creation. On my sixth day on the floor I had 4 patients, one of whom was NPO and going down for a right AKA. Stupid me, looked at the MAR and saw a huge list of PO meds and figured "well he doesn't get those, he's NPO" and I was correct...HOWEVER, since surgery came and got him late there was IV antibiotics, a finger stick, and some eye drops I failed to administer. The preceptor I had that day didn't seem too worried about it, but I feel terrible. I don't want to do sloppy work or fail to care properly for my patients, but in just six days my time management, multitasking, and "thinking like a nurse" is poor. On my fourth day with one preceptor, I misread some orders and she hit the roof. I feel like I can't do anything right and I really don't know if I'm cut out for this. One preceptor said I lacked initiative but then she was like "maybe it's just because you're cautious." Darn right I'm cautious! There are so many things I haven't even done before. I have ZERO healthcare background other than nursing school. They tell me I get a month of orientation and I'm halfway through it and I've only spent 6 days on the floor. I really don't want to get fired, I want to be a GOOD nurse, but it's like my brain doesn't work. If I try to figure out something on my own, I screw up and get yelled at, or I do it right and no one says anything at all. If I ask questions I get treated like a moron. I also have another PRN job in LTC where I got 2 whole days of on the floor orientation before being tossed thirty patients to care for. I finally got that figured out, but hospital nursing seems even more complicated and the atmosphere is super tense! How in the world can I get proficient at this in two or three more weeks?!?