I was accepted into my local community college Nursing program back in April. The first day of class was August 17th. We had an all day student orientation in the beginning of July where we got to meet the insructors, the other students, program outline, list of supplies, ect. I was super nervous, and extremly excited. As the first day drew closer I was gathering supplies and books and calendars and scrubs and organizing and then reorganizing everything. Then my husbands panic attacks got worse and more frequent, his depression was getting worse, and he was having suicide ideation. After a year of trying to deal with it all, he wound up being admitted to the Behavioural Health Unit the week before classes started. I knew that I wouldn't be able to handle the stress of being a new nursing student on top of helping my husband recover. Plus he had lost his job when he was admitted, so I would be sole provider. I know some people are strong enough to work full time and be in Nursing school full time, and support their husband/best friend through recovery from depression and anxiety. But I am not. So I called my advisor and we both agreed it would be best to take a year, and reapply for next year. My husbands depression is much better now that his meds were rearranged, I have my best friend back. However he is still having debillitating panic attacks andhe struggles with leaving the house alone. He is in therepy and working on it. Right now I am just very discouraged by everything thats happened. I feel like Ive lost my drive. I realize that there is never a perfect time or situation for nursing school, and life throws curve balls all the time, I have to learn how to adapt,ect. And Im sure I will. Somehow Ill find my drive to do it no matter if my husband is able to work or not. But right now I just need some words of encouragement please. Thank you, and sorry for the long post, I really needed to get this out there.