So we have this guy on the ward, BPD, he had a horrendous childhood, sexual abuse outside home, parental abuse, bullying at school, .He is also extremely pleasant to talk to, but very clingy. Seems to want to be mothered. This has meant in his adult life he has been exploited sexually amongst other ways. Iam his key nurse.
He is a drug abuser anabolic steriods, and is extremely muscular and tall. powerful with a horrendous temper which meds seems to do little to control , which has caused him in other facilities to get in violent altercations with male members of staff,including choking one out and headbutting another.Patients he distances himself if anything ,zero problems . With female members he is extremely placid and cooperative,they all love him despite his history as he is funny and engaging to talk to ,polite and well spoken.Yet with males very little will cause him to become confrontational ,even his tone of voice changes.
.Zero history of any incidents with female members. His abusers were male when he was a child so maybe it is that.
I can't help be be attracted to him and am having trouble maintaining boundaries.The problem though is the opposite as I feel I have even tighter boundaries perhaps too tight than I would say a female borderline patient and I think it is affecting things,I am giving him less one to one time than I would others for instance . Just wondered how others cope.
