I'm in my 4th year of college, and 2nd year of nursing school (for my BSN). This semester I have started my first clinical experience. Although I have only gone to the hospital for 3 weeks now... I'm terrified of this time! I often cry because I don't think I want to be a nurse. I do very well in school, 3.62/4.0 GPA, but I have NO confidence in myself as being a successful nurse! I'm afraid I'll only receive criticism from my parents because of "wasting 2 years of college" and all of the money. Not only that, I feel like a failure because there's nothing else I'd rather persue!!! Honestly I feel like my life is worthless. I feel like I'm in nursing school because it's what my family wants and I have no desire to do anything else! Am I just over reacting, or am I going to be terrified of going to the hospital next semester too?? I'm also very worried that I'll have to get a job soon (most likely Nurse Tech) and I won't know/be scared of what to do!
Does anyone else have a similar experience? How did you cope? I think I just need some encouragement. It seems like all of the other girls in my class have their heads on straight and mine is spinning out of control.
Oct 5, '05
I understand! My head is not on well either I suppose. I too, do well in school but am a wee bit scared of clinicals. I am pursuing my ADN and am done with all pre req's. Im currently taking fundamentals I & II, and I cry all the way home, almost every day. I've wondered if nursing is for me... but it took me a year to get here, and it is so competitive, so I am trying to stick it out.
i too, like you have just finished my third clinical. Each time that I go in, i am a wee bit scared, but learn a wee bit more. I think that it will get easier as time progresses. Nursing is a BIG job you know...Hang in there!!
ps... If we were confident and knowledged and knew everything, there would be no need for clinicals! Its ok!
Last edit by Ivanna_Nurse on Oct 5, '05
: Reason: oops I forgot......