I've been an RN for almost 2 years now, and I work in a pretty small hospital with vent patients w/multisystem failures. I love the patients but I hate the family members sometimes because they can be the worst, I love the people I work with but I cannot stand the management and administration. They push the nurses to have a load of 8-9 patients!!! its horrible. I've been getting into fights with my nurse manager and charge nurse because I refuse to take care of 8 patients! its too much, we have antib., accuchecks, dsgs and family members up to our butts!
I am planning to leave in the summer after I finish my BSN but I don't think I can last any longer sometimes. I feel like walking out of there sometimes. I am so scared that if I go to other places it will be worst. I want to work in a trauma floor and deal with other type of patients, maybe some that will not die all the time. Its hard because if I would not get so many patients things will be better. I am still confused and frustrated because I don't feel confident sometimes to go to a unit or some other special area. I am a good nurse I know it but why I feel so scared???
well, that's all I wanted to share, thank you for listening