need some help and opinions - page 2

i'm not sure how i'm supposed to be feeling right now. you see, i'm a nurse tech. i was in on my first code today. i'm thinking the lady isn't going to make it. :o when i called for the... Read More

  1. by   CaliNurse
    It will get easier. I remember my first code. It was 6:30am and her name was Margaret. We had just left her room (last rounds) and she was next to the station. The next time I passed her door she was on the floor.

    Now, 12 years later the only thing I remember is her name and she well care for. It was her time.

    Keep you chin up, when he calls, we answer.

  2. by   GPatty
    {{{HUGS}}} to you Rena.....
  3. by   Rena RN 2003
    thank you all.
  4. by   whipping girl in 07
    Rena, it doesn't get any easier, but I understand how you feel. I remember the first time I had a patient code. He'd had a CABG the day before (I was still in orientation). He had been awake and alert for most of the night, even though he was still on the vent. But he started gettting a little foggy around 4 am, very slow to follow commands. Then during shift change (around 6:50) he went asystole. We brought him back, but he never woke up again, and literally rotted away in the ICU, on the vent, zillion drips, had another surgery (abd, I believe), and coded twice more. Finally after 3 weeks of suffering, the family decided to let him go.

    On the other hand, I had a patient who coded twice in a month (during two different hospital admissions) and walked out of the hospital once again. What everyone else has said seems to be true...when it's their time to go, there's nothing we can do to save them. And if it's not their time, we'll bring them back.
  5. by   mark_LD_RN
    I can remeber all the codes i have been too I is a very normal feeling to question what you did or could havedone differently. don't dwell on it to hard. I can not honestly say it get easier, but you do learn to deal with it and put it in proper perspective easier with experience.
    some codes or worst than others , i find it especially hard when i have developed a relationship with the patient over time or if they were young. since i do not tend to give up easily I tend to take it kinda harder than i should. I once coded a pregnant women after a car wreck, we lost both mom and baby. I can still see her till this day. but i now know we did everything possible. and it was just not in big plan of things for her to make it. Ihad to leave work after that and i took 3 days sick leave after it to recover. go luck and hang in there
    Last edit by mark_LD_RN on Oct 1, '02