I feel down and I just need to get it out.
I'm a new grad and I'm in orientation. This is my 2nd week on med/surg floor with my preceptor.
I might be a slow learner but I am trying so hard to become a good nurse. My preceptor on the floor doesn't explain a lot to me but she just tell me
what to do. I just started working and I wanted to LEARN.
I had to discuss my pts' condition with Dr today (they do this every Friday) so she told me that I had to read almost everything in the chart (operative note, progress note, H&P, lab results in like 10 mins). She told me that I had to know everything because I needed to be able to answer any questions he'd ask. She told me that she'd be right there with me when they do this discussion thing but she didn't even come out from the break room because she was eating. When I asked her to be there with me she got very frustrated. This was my first time and I felt so overwhelmed. The only good thing was the Dr was very nice. He even said that my preceptor should have been there with me since I'm a new nurse and this is my first time.
There are a lot of things that I don't agree with her. Is that because I just graduated from nursing school and the real life is different than textbooks???
One of my pts was taking k-dur tablets but she had a hard time swallowing so I asked my preceptor if we could ask Dr to change the order to capsule ones. She said "there's nothing we can do about it so we would just crush and dissolve in warm water, and give with apple sauce" but it clearly stated "DO NOT CRUSH". I reminded her twice but she told me it's okay. Is it really???
My other pt was using PCA. She was confused so there was a sitter in the room. This sitter was CNA but my preceptor told her to push PCA button when the pt gets agitated and if he looks like he's in pain. CNA shouldn't push the button right??? or is it just in the textbook??? My preceptor argued with other new grad that it's the right thing to do because we have to take care of his pain.
I am not learning from her and I feel like I'm getting behind. I only have a few more days with this preceptor and I will move on to different floor with different preceptor. I hope things will be different. Thank you for reading.....