Feeling very sad today - page 2

I work in pediatric oncology. I love my job and there are some days that are so happy. But Friday was particularly sad. A little 2 year old, Logan, has a cancer that will probably not be cured. ... Read More

  1. by   steena79
    Having a big heart is definitely not a bad thing. I am a student nurse and sometimes wonder how am I going to learn to deal with death better??? You can't help but feel the way you do, after all you are human. Just know that you have done what you can for Logan. You are caring and loving. Logan is only 2 years old but can sense what is going on around him. He senses that you are helping him in anyway you can and that you CARE. That is one of the biggest things you do as a nurse. Smile and know that Logan will be a peace soon!! His suffering will be replaced with peace.
  2. by   Agnus
    Dear Maggie,
    Thank you so much for your story. I am new to this site and have been scannning some of the discussions. It is very discouraging to read. Your post on the other hand is the reason I came to nursing. I am a student starting my last peids. rotation. I have for many years known about the wonderful care given at St. Jude's. I will probably never work there, (geography). But it is what inspires me the most. Bless you for shareing your love. LOVE is what nursing is all about. NOTHING ELSE.
  3. by   Georgia
    I know that I personally could never do oncology, and especially pediatric oncology. Nearly every shift that I work, death and dying is a part of it, but usually not children. The questions that haunt you, and haunt us all. If you care(and obviously you do) these questions of "why" will bother you. I pray that God will help you to find peace with this, and that you can find strenght to continue. We definately need nurses like you in our ranks. I have been a RN since 1980, and a contributor to Saint Judes Hosp for nearly that long. I cry with every letter I recieve from them, and have always admired anyone who works there. Keep up the caring my friend. Georgia in Texas
  4. by   lindainl&d
    Your letter was wonderful, I know how sad days like that can go, (one of the reasons I choose to work in labor and delivery instead of peds.) I have had a sad couple of weeks, with 3 patients with fetal demises. Your letter brought out the feelings I had but was unable to adequetly share with friends and family because they just wouldn't understand. It looks like St.Judes has s jewel in you. God bless you and keep on caring. Linda
  5. by   MercyAngels
    PLEASE do not feel that you have failed as nurse because you "got attached". Without that attachment to the people we take care of, we're robots, not nurses!!! One of the great dangers in nursing is the heartache we must deal with it. Although my experiences in peds have never involved the death of child, I have been involved with several clients with an IUFD/stillbirth, and it takes a lot out of you! But, the families are always glad to know you care!!!! Trust me, they'd much rather have an empathetic and compassionate nurse, than one who maintains distance! Keep up the good work!!!! The field of nursing could use more like you!!!!!
  6. by   RDJ R.N.
    Keep caring. I know it is hard, but from someone that has been there on the other side as the family of the dying child please believe me that it means soooo much to the parents that you care.
  7. by   Elaine Woodward
    God bless you for your work on the front lines of pediatrics.Your caring attitude makes all the difference for this innocent victim of disease and his grieving parents. We won't know the answers to all the "whys" until we get to heaven.In the mean time, I pray that God will give you the strength and wisdom to continue caring for His most precious ones. Elaine in Alabama
  8. by   chile1v
    How wonderful Logan, and his parent's have a nurse like you! I work in a telemetry unit where a majority of my patients are geri's. I have a lost a couple that I have become attached to. I am absolutely convinced that these people, and their families, are God's blessing to me. It is a comforting to be able to offer caring, dignifying, professional care. I like to believe it is why God called me to this profession. Keep up the good work!


  9. by   Deb Rn
    Maggie, the world needs more nurses like you. When something sad happens in ER sudden death etc. I am deeply affected. i always say to myself the day I get hardened to the death of an individual young or old is the day I personally have to leave nursing. This young lad was soooooo lucky to have a compassionate and loving nurse such as you. I bet you hugged your little ones hard when you went home. Keep smiling. Deb.