I am not exactly sure what I want to say, but I was wondering if there is anyone else out there that struggles in this area.
I am a nursing student with one year completed. I have struggled for the past 10 years with an eating disorder, anorexia and bulimia. This is not something I want to continue. I hate the comments from people regarding my size (have a BMI of 16), and yes I do want to gain weight/get stronger. I am not actually physically compromised, lab results are fine and such. But I do realize it may just be a matter of time if I don't stop before my K+ drops too low.
I do not talk about this with anyone in my program, although they may suspect. I do very well in school this issue has somewhat hindered my study habits, but not to the point of being in danger of not passing.
I guess I am just afraid, I thought that I would have gotten things under wraps by this time. I don't want to go to my pinning knowing I am a fraud, about to embark on a career where I will be providing care for others and am not giving that to myself.
So again, I don't know what my point really was other than to reach out and see if there was anyone out there that relates or has some advice. I apologize for using the forum as a sounding board, but I feel so alone in this.