Quote from MedEm29
I know it is impossible for me to have the knowledge base of a 20-year veteran nurse anytime soon but it's so frustrating.
And that frustration can be a catalyst to stimulate your endeavor, Emily.
Just the fact that you are driven is an indication that you want to be a good nurse
and that is admirable.
I would like to echo what TruvyNurse said, yet from a different angle. Learning from experience is an deductive/inductive/repetition/association process. In other words, we learn through generalization, specifics by repeating processes over and over again repeatedly, and then we associate certain known entities with one another.
This is a process which could take months or years or it might just all come to you in an explosively illuminating moment of revelation.
My advice is to continue doing what you're doing: Working at it, reaching out for more information, and living your endeavor- Eat, drink, and sleep med surge nursing.
It will come to you.
A story I like to tell happen to me when I worked in OR. I had broken into hospital nursing with 2 1/2 years of working in psych as an LPN, but really wanted to get some techy medical experience. I got the position as a scrub nurse and worked at learning the trade. At first I was all thumbs and a supervisor questioned whether this was a right fit for me. I cried and persevered by eating, drinking, and sleeping scrub nursing. Then, it all came together: Three months in and I was a shining star!
Although I would like to go on and float my own boat, I'll leave it at that, for I want it to serve as an example to you, Emily. Hard work and perseverance will sail you to your port.
Good luck, and the very best to you!