Frustration setting in!

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So still haven't heard anything from my lawyer regarding my case. Am I going to be able to continue my nursing career or what? I feel like just withdrawing from monitoring and going back work as an MA.

I am 37 and just found out I'm pregnant with my 3 child. Obviously a blessing but with everything going in I feel like I need to minimize the stress. I work at a wonderful clinic and I am the only RN . It is a low stress job and It is like working for family. We are all one big family! I miss work , I still go in to help with billing and it is hard not to step in and help. I have been really thinking about just letting my license go and felling normal again.

My biggest problem isn't the program itself it's the fear I face throughout the night of forgetting to call in. I am literally having nightmares and can't sleep. I had dilutes in the past so I'm practically living in a dehydrated state so I don't give a dilute. Going crazy!' I wasn't like this before. Maybe it's hormones.......anyways, thanks for listening. Just need to do what's best for me. Just not sure what that is.

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You may want to consider a counselor, or meetings with a sponsor so that you can make right in your heart and your brain of what occurred, and how to make things right within yourself.

Wishing you the best.

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I already see a counselor and an very close with my sponsor. the thing is I am totally right in my heart about with everything, maybe not so much my brain. My counselor says I over think and analyze to much and he certainly is right. Just to refresh I had a relapse and drank 2 beers a couple months back . I am certainly am not going to beat myself up about it, nor make light of the situation. However, I feel like the punishment should fit the crime. so I hope for the best

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Specializes in ER, Med/Surg, Telemetry, Dialysis.

I feel your pain on the dilutes, I've also had several and I too now drink very little on the days I'm selected for testing. It makes me kinda angry sometimes because it's like dang I'm doing all this, staying clean, and now I can get in trouble because of my kidneys?? I even got "spoken too" once about my urine being too concentrated! Sometimes it feels like I can't win!

I also wanted to quit manyyyy times because it took me a year and a half to find a job again and I started feeling like it was all pointless anyway and I just wanted my life and sanity back! Now that I'm working again though and able to again financially provide for my family, there's no way I'm quitting! But I got through the times of wanting to by reminding myself that I didn't know if I could live with what would happen if I quit but I could definitely live with doing the dang program one more day at least...and so I did.

As for checkin anxiety, create a daily alarm on your phone!

Anyhoo, just wanted you to know that I 100% commiserate with you and everything you've said and I hope you're able to hang in there!

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Thanks odaat!

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Specializes in ED, Trauma, Swat,Critical care, Peds.

I share you pain that only time can heal. It definitely gets better. Just take it easy and go with flow , slow things down and relax. If I can make I feel like every nurse on this planet has a shot. Two years ago I wasn't hearing it but I promise it gets better.

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So I finally hear from my lawyer and she said my hopes is to try and make an offer to the board of a 3 year probation agreement. This means my situation going public. Can some elaborate on what exactly that means! When I meant withy lawyer she was much more positive about a good outcome, didn't sound so much like that anymore. I can't imagine fixing up at this point but I so have some concerns. I am 3 months pregnant and already halving some blood pressure issue and dehydration problems. I am trying to eliminate all the stressors in my life but this issue with the board is hanging over my head.if I give up know then what does that's mean for any future in nursing down the road? Does anyone know

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Specializes in ED, Trauma, Swat,Critical care, Peds.

It just means the conditions of the contract will be published to public view.The CANDO contract is confidential and hidden from public view . Essentially they are the same, it's just a matter of private vs public records. However the Cando is discarded after said years of compliance.

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